1. |
Somewhere swallowed.
08:02
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Embedded in a ground
Frozen and held tight
A place out of reach
With seldom any light
Seldom any fight
This isn't anywhere
Nothing here
Lapsing and sharing
An entire life
Taken whole
Your pills for the day
An entire life
Swallowed whole
An entire life here
Somewhere swallowed
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3. |
Nothing is okay.
04:43
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In each year to come
I'll still have nothing
Nothing done
No purpose
No sweet breaths
I hold
No certainty
In what I'll be
It's hard enough
Remembering
That I have to be tomorrow
Bet this
A shell; no warmth
A molt; no heart
Just nothing
Waking up tomorrow
Being nothing
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4. |
Closure in emptiness.
12:05
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Finally alone
Was it
What I wanted
Was it ever what I wanted
Every moment now
Hearing my own
Sickly hoarse voice again
And again
I sound horrid
No worse company
Than the piece of shit
I cut up in the mirror
He hates me
Taunts me
Ruins me
I fucking hate me
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5. |
I am a lower being.
05:39
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Left unfinished
So close
To being someone
All these years
Worked so hard
To break me and cut me
You stitched me together
What was left of the body
Heart, eyes, and ears
You made me
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6. |
Hang me and my picture.
05:12
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7. |
You are human.
02:26
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I'd leave everything inside
My coat, pants, and shoes
What little hope I brought over
Leaving you
What good will they do me on the outside
Why would I need anything
Anything other than a beating heart
Gathering my belongings
Set them in a corner
Let them gather dust
Just like our love
Bring it out
When you're tinged
With a hint of yearning
You can always hold
What I once wore
What space I once filled
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8. |
It won't be easier.
06:04
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I'll never stop scarring up these arms
Until I finally know
That all of this harm
Again will never show
I love you
More than anything
I must know the truth
Am I still dreaming
These nights
Will never get easier
Without your skin and knives
From here on
It won't be easier
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I break when I wake up
Broken every night
Feeding into you
Taking everything you'd give
Now it's too far gone
And I'm so lost
Look at me
When I waste these words for you
I'd hold you for a thousand suns
But when the sun sets
You don't want me anymore
No solace in sleep
Nothing to hold
There is no freedom
I am a slave
To everything you gave
But I've realized
The lengths to which
A single lie will go
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10. |
I crave your embrace.
10:31
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All will has fled since you left
No intimacy
Don't touch me
Don't look at me
I don't want anyone
To see this body
To touch this body
Only you
I've no desire
You may find others
To replace my caress
But I won't
No one will cool my skin
Just like you
A gentle touch
And halfhearted moans
They aren't you
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I'd be a lonely soul
if it weren't for you
Keeping my heart company
Even from across these plains
If it weren't for you
I'd live a life of eternal pain
In my heart
You turn these cogs
In my heart
No matter what I've done
No matter the loss
Or time spent apart
You're all I've got
I cherish sweetly
Every second
You spend in my head
I'll cherish it
Until I have nothing left
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12. |
We left Glen Rose.
08:34
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I'll never step foot
In that town again
All of it
Belongs to you
I won't be
Unless you say it's okay
I won't smile
Unless you tell me to
I don't want to be okay
Unless you are too
I don't want to smile
Unless I'm smiling with you
All those nights alone
Staggering to my mirror
Drawing blood
And hoping you're in my reflection
All those nights
Waiting for you
I won't breathe
Unless you want me to
I won't be
Unless you want me to
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13. |
Please, please smile.
08:18
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We waited for our sun
Holding each other
Hours duly spent
Sharing our warmth
When we left my room
The day was nearly gone
Now it won't be long
'fore I can't handle what looms
So many nights
I'd recite the same song
Promises to be there
In the morning
In the morning
I'd hold you closer
In dream the same
I'd hold your tender frame.
And each song, Amanda
I recite in tears
Only for you.
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14. |
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That bed
Our home
Our life
This bed
This room
Falling away
Without you
No sleep
I need you here
I don't need a reason
To dream of you
Of your eyes
Your breath
Your shivers
Your touch
I don't need a reason
To need you
I don't need a reason
To love you
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Somewhere swallowed. Oklahoma City, Oklahoma
I dream of you endlessly.
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